Progress

This week, my son officially qualified for special education services. Nothing has started yet, although the special education teacher has been working with him for a few months, anyway. But, it is a relief to know that there will be an official plan, and maybe some of the help we need. We are one week away from the appointment with the psychiatrist. It is late, and I don't know why I am still up. I need to take care of myself so I am able to take care of my children. I know this, but some nights it is so hard to go to bed.

Moments of Nothing

Today is one of those days when I feel like nothing has been accomplished, and nothing I am doing is making a difference. It doesn't help that I have had a headache for most of the day, and haven't felt like doing anything. But I think a lot of it is me not having a positive attitude about what I have done. If there are no huge accomplishments, I don't feel like I have done anything. I guess I just want to have a purpose, to have some sort of positive impact on this world.

Letting Go

It is hard to see my little girl growing up. Today she is off to her first official sleepover. Not at church, not in a protected environment, but at someone else's house. Granted, she has known this girl since kindergarten, so it's not like she is going to a stranger's house, but it is still a big step. I hope she enjoys herself, and is not afraid. Yet I miss her dependence on me.